Current mood:	aggravated
Current music:	Madd- Leftside aka Mr. Evil

Hey, go suck your F$()#in mother..
Haha, heck of an opening huh :).....So yeah back to this family thing.  I mean to blog last night.  So check this out.

There's a bit of heated angry thing going on between my grandaunt and her family members. Seems like my great grandmother's sister is living with my grandaun't son.  That's a good thing right? Well...seeing as it's my family, it's never a good thing.

I suppose the angry hurt thing comes with the fact that my grandaunt was lied to or something.  See, her son and wife said they could come visit but they ended up changing their minds at the last minute.  Apparently, she caught on pretty easy to what she called a lie and got suspicious but held high hopes on being surprised or something.  What I mean is this...she had this awesome watermelon there....she bought it like....4 weeks ago now..a month I believe.   It's already in the trash.  She bought it for her son because she was very excited at the fact that they were coming to visit..I mean there is always that excitement right?  Well the poor thing ended up saving the watermelon for 2 or 3 weeks, hoping he would come down.  It was safe to advise her not to wait because of that watermelon. Too bad it was already spoiled.  What a waste of watermelon =(.

Less importantly, I don't know what to make of these family issues.  I personally don't care...To be emoishly and brutally honest, I really don't give a crap.  It's a good thing I'm good at reading body langauge and voice tones....So my cousin (my grandaunt's son) calls my moms cellphone and they talk and all....then my mom calls me to the phone.  Man I was busy doing more important things at the time but i figured I'd be respectful to my mom.  Boy what so many people in this family don't know about what I would say to them in person if it wasn't for my mom...don't let the smile fool you family members.   Anyway, my great grandaunt...my beloved great grandmother's ....sister(notice how I separated my beloved great grandmother from sister) comes on the phone and is like "Oh, do well in school, keep God first" etc etc.  During the conversation she says, "Ohhh, you know I'm living with your 'uncle' Rayymondd you know."  In reality I was like, "So fucking what?" but in honor of my great grandmother and in the respect of my mother, I didn't say it.  I congratuated her move and asked her if she liked it and she said that it was quiet and she liked it.  I'm actually glad to hear something a little positive although I Think she told me to see what I would say.  She was like, "Yeah it's nice to be around family.." this and that.  So she says, "I hope to see you soon" and I laughed.  I laugheddddddd a laugh that was secretly demeaning to anyone with sense and I believe she picked it up.  She said in a monotone voice "Heh, you laugh."  and I said, "Yeah.." So to make a long story short, I  was asked to call my cousin who has kidney stones and e-mail my cousin's wife's sister to keep in touch.  Not like I can't see a setup going on in which, I swear they don't know vengence if I am.  My mom has a philosophy about people who smile and laugh all the time (Me).  She feels they are dangerous because if you get shot by them, they will still laugh and walk off.  ~_~...now you know where  I get the body reading skills from lol.  But let's drop the violent thoughts thing.  I need to finish ranting with a clean head..

So..Why am I obligated to call or contact people for the sake of "family"? These are the people who ignored the fact that I exist. In fact they didn't want anything to do with me.  They force family members on you like you are supposed to get used to them and know them for the sake of family members.   Don't they understand that I don't really give a (cuss) ..............23 to (cuss) late you (Serious rahtid cussing here).  You know my "uncle" or better yet my mom's cousin said something interesting.  He said I am the next generation of this family.  This family, that never recognized me until I was in college...better yet at a UNIVERSITY!   I'm sooo sick, so sick.  Again i'm soooo sick and tired of this "obligation thing".   As I will usually say, "Mi nuh beg friend an family. Mi nuh wan handout or sweet wata" Meaning, I don't need friends or family to survive in life.  Though it would be nice, I prefer friends over family at the moment.  As martial artists would probably tell them, "You have too many uncessessary movements."  I don't owe anyone anything nor do they owe me anything.  

But you know..deep down in my heart...everyone is using everyone. I'm just going to come out and say it.  My great grandaunt is probably using my cousin and his wife for whatever she has planned, they are probably using her for maybe some money or something, My grandaunt is probably upset...not only because she remembers all the bad things my great grandaunt did to her and probably had investment thoughts as well.  Word is my great grandaunt has "Money".  I don't believe that woman has money, and if she did, she ain't giving anything to any of them or us or anyone so i won't be surprised if they are disappointed.  After all, most of the people in this family are weasels anyway.  Fox faced weasels.

I'm out. Listening to fast paced music and it's having the wrong influence on my emotion. *drops the 'mic' while trying to control anger*